smart tunnel.

ive asked so many people WHY the smart tunnel is called the smart tunnel. there just has to be a reason. today, i was really bored and decided to ask wikipedia about it and i just found out that SMART stands for Storm-water Management And Road Tunnel!

i think that oh-so-cool. maybe some of you knew this ages ago but the people ive been asking sure didnt know! basically it acts as a drain and a road. when it floods, they ensure all traffic is clear and then open huge gates and let water flow like a huge-ass drain! how cool is that.

dont mind me! im just fascinated by it.

i luuuuuuurv u wikipedia. but a lil less than i love google ofcourse! :)

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what makes me hyper!

songs by MIKA get me so hyper.

i heard WE ARE GOLDEN after a long time today and the song made me get off my chair, dance and shake like an insane person.

i loved him from the day i heard grace kelly! :)

sucker for bread.

i didnt realize that my undying love for bread and cream crackers was a lil odd to others. i can eat bread with almost anything. same goes with cream crackers. if i had to chose one thing to live on for the rest of my life, it would be crackers or bread.

anyways, was talking to my cousin sometime back and she asked if i eat rihaakuru although im here. so me, very casually said, "yeah, i ate rihaakuru and bread this morning" and she gave me the most weird look and i was a tad bit confused. so i was like, 'isnt it normal to eat bread and rihaakuru' and shes was like NO!

hmph. but but but i do that all the time! and i think its very normal. well, i havent seen many people eat it like that but still, whats wrong in that? i think.........nothing.

that reminded me that few years ago i went over to one of my cousin's friend's place for a swim. after the swim everyone was like looking for food to eat and as for me, the moment i saw bread - i didnt need to beg for anything else. there was some cream cheese, diff sauces and this and that lying around and dudeeeeee... to me, bread with cream cheese and a mild layer of chillie sauce is THE BOMB. i love love love love eating that. so i put on some cream cheese on the bread and maybe everyone thought that was normal until i put the sauce on it and started eating it and everyone at the table gave me weird stares. i just dont get whats so abnormal about it. really. its all edible things put together, yes?

the reason im blogging this is because just now, after having lunch i was looking around for some dessert to finish it off with. today, after a very very very long time i ate something that i love but havent eaten for a long time. which is bread with a mild layer of condensed milk / sweetened creamer on it! YUMMMMMM. try it. its delicious. when its in ur mouth, it tastes like some kinda bread pudding or something. super super yum.

bread is the shit. to be more precise, im a sucker for gardenia bread here in malaysia! YUM. when they say "so good you can even eat it on its own" in their ads, its not bullshit. i do it all the time.

bored, very bored, too bored.

im bored beyond boredom. ( wrong english i know ).. but seriously! ive run outta things to do and i dont even have any freelance work to do at the moment. so its making me super jobless and bored. the core problem here is that ernest is having exams the whole of last week and this week and hes been buried in books for like 2.5 weeks straight! and me on the other hand, trying to act like a very supportive newly wedded wife by cooking, cleaning, random hugs, asking him if he needs anything whiles he busy studying.

i feel a tad bit mother-ish too! haha. i think i pamper him too much but i know hes really drained out. just as he said it himself the other day, hes 'physically, emotionally, spiritually...blah blah' TIRED.

since ive not blogged in a gazillion years, ive not blogged that my mom isnt in the country. which is where the boredom really multiplies. had my brat brother been around i would have had something to be busy with either screaming at him or trying to get along with him or doing something random or having a evening chat with mom. but, thats not happening. le sigh. they left to maldives followed by sri lanka and would be coming back only in jan i think! its a lonely december and i remember last december was bad too. weirdly, last december seems just like yesterday. my bday was rotten, xmas and new years was cute though. i remember blogging abt it.

hmph. the song The Show - Lenka has been stuck in my head for days! i keep wishing i'd wake up with another song stuck in my head but noooooo, every morning as i start showering, i think of that song and i have to dance and sing along. yesterday though, i woke up with "WHERE DID U GET UR BODY FROM.... I GOT IT FROM MA MAMA... I GOT IT FROM MA MAMA" stuck in my head! hahaha. the best bit is that the moment i realized that i had a diff song stuck in my head, LENKA jumped into my head again and there i was singing ....'im just a lil bit caught in the middle, life is a maze, love is a riddle.. i dont know where to go, can't do it alone, i've tried and i dont know why......."

whats super duper annoying is that....... some of my friends are being so buggy and pissy abt the fact that i didnt "invite them for my wedding". dude, there was no celebration and even my mom wasnt around so whats the big deal? the day we decide we want to celebrate our marriage, we'll invite the whole wide world and do that! maybe im being a lil bitchy here but its just irritating. i know most people plan their weddings like years ahead and tell the neighbours dog, fish monger and all the random people abt the wedding. but, ours wasnt like that. we both had talked about it and this time when i came to malaysia we decided to make it legal and we did just that. so, its over and done with.

some friends confronted me about whether the news they were hearing among people was true whereas some were being weird and going around telling people that im a weird friend because i didnt tell them personally. im sorry. maybe im rude but i just couldnt be arsed telling everyone individually. peopel are bound to find out afterall, gossip spreads faster than bush fires most times.

i like food.

me: OHHHH HOW I LOVEEE FOOODDDD... LA LA LA

him: WHEN IS SHE EVER GOING TO FINISH EATING! *stressed*

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- If you ask me in a twisted way why I'm so twisted; it's because the world and it's people are twisted and I need to be twisted in order to fit into the twisted world or by luck if I twist in the opposite way, theres a chance that twisted things would get straightened. Now that's twisted, right?

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a post for someone.

this post is entirely written for a friend of mine. i wont mention any names but im writing this post with one particular person in my head. sometimes i wonder to myself what the real definition of 'friend' is. who is a friend? but this person is neither a stranger nor an enemy so i choose to call the person a 'friend'.

lately ive noticed that this person has been really lonely. im not very close to this person but when i sit back and think about it, i wish i was. i wish i could be there for this person, i wish i could just take that load off the persons head.

why i feel this way for this person? i dont know. i frankly dont know. im the type of person who cant be arsed listening to peoples problems most of the time because ive got a shit load on my head. and sometimes i just feel that most people dont have the time to listen to me, so why should i sit and listen to them! but with regards to this particular person, something tells me i have to be there for him/her.

i myself have a load of things that i cant talk to anyone about. things that i have tried to deal with while growing up but as each day passes it just haunts me more. the same way, i feel this person has gone through one huge upsetting incident in life along with lil insecurities that have made the person the way he/she is right now.

im not bold enough to tell that person that i do worry about him/her. im not bold enough to tell that person that i've always be there to listen. im not bold enough to say all this because i myself dont wanna face rejection. that person does not believe in people being there for him/her. and thus, would not trust me to step into his/her life to make a change that i want to make either i guess.

im writing this on my blog just because i want to. im not even sure if the person reads my blog or not. even if he/she does, they wouldnt know who this is written for so its just like a letter to an anonymous person. but here goes:

i wish you knew that i care. i wish you knew how much i wanna get you outta the mess you are going through. i dont wanna interrupt with your life or what you're doing but i just wanna make a change, make someone happy and that would make me happy. you have friends who are always trying to make use of you. i sit back and observe all these things. we may not hang out in person as much but call me a stalker if you want, but im watching over you. your relationship issues, friend issues, family issues are driving you insane. i know it. i see it. although i wanna help u so much, i feel helpless. it frustrates me. ive been suicidal before, wanted to escape this thing called life until i met that person who changed my life. im sure you too are going to find this person. life doesnt come easy, nothing does. just remember that. hold on strong and do things for your own satisfaction. NOT to suit others. afterall, building your character is more worth is than building your reputation because your character is WHO you really are and ur reputation is just what others think about you. which you dont need to give a fuck about. you are absolutely smart, talented, creative and much more. you dont believe in yourself, you dont see it. i do. i wish you find a life time partner (just like ernest/ girl version of ernest) who would make you realize you are worth so much. just the way ernest made me change and believe in myself. dont give up. dont lose hope. i dont know you well, your biggest worry is still stuck deep within you. i understand it because i too was and still am in the same position. maybe this is the reason why i feel the need to just be there for you.

hmph. i dont know what else to write. but anyways, on a more general note... to whoever is down and hurt : dont give up! :) life is full of surprises and as cliche as that sounds, its true. we just need to keep holding on and not ever think for once about giving up on this thing called life. people who have gone through alot are the strongest people deep within. people who live the perfect life would never be able to handle such a life even for a day! :) so feel bold, feel proud, do what YOU wanna do and make everyday the best with self satisfaction.

this is such a rant. im not even gonna read it back again..

..when theres love; there is....